queered family healthy portrait

let me tell you something about my family- my immediate family. A family of queers, the gender non-conforming ties that bind us solid to the history we're creating. in short time that stranger over there became relative - we couldn't help but marry in, together we're rediscovering the truest selves, soul searching, an honest exploration, safely tucking that past away from all we fear and closing in on the small stuff, the point of getting to know my self in this very moment in this very time in this very relationship to you though i know you hardly, at all.  knowing this, here and now, to us is worth the maintenance because love for us is plentiful - love is essential. that is changing, renaming, redefining, re-contextualized genderfucks, appearance that is fluid, frames that we use to border each other and protect us from forgetting this is all that we have.
siblings, who will they be this week and what pronoun should i use today, who will i be tomorrow and how will i adequately present the self of all my yesterdays without ruining the representation of someone else today. someone else who you will love, who will be accepted by the company and receive a job in a society my family is bending and breaking and bound to escape. if we push forward restricting nothing, no dream's impossible. we are constantly reminding each other that though the outside real world is ever changing, unforgiving, continually re-defying us, but we know not to do this to one another.  respectfully, we ask - how do we define this, how can i create hir or them or that. more explicitly we give room for support, honesty and trust. there is constant help and in turn constant hope, for there's a constant reminder of love, allowing me to take that challenge and make that change, consistently we nurture this process alone and together, whether it gets worse some days, it's for better.  how can i be me, we produce answer upon answer forever and then the more we wonder how it's possible but we are reminding ourselves. deep breathes, be easy, gently go forth, look back and don't be angry, learn from the past.