refusal of the fittest

i refuse to write about you
poems that are telling of romance
of plans for the future
that tell one, like they tell me
"you are too far ahead, in your mind,
you are thinking, too far in advance,"
and this is true, my friend
he tells me and reminds me
you should go, go see him
he likes you, i think
i know he is right but i am scared shitless
to begin, again
if this poem is not about you
i can't lose right? i only win
so i won't write you in lines
or create stories about our future
how it could be, it is
because it is not a big deal,
it is just a thing
i like, a lot, right now.