as i stand by him, i settle into him, wake yet again to the renewal
another years membership of waking beside your friendship
across the country, still freezing
in my stubborn resistance, in this city's north
i hide in this tiny studio, turn the calendar page
and count my blessings because it's February,
i survive yet another half of season
first half was the ending of my most transformative summer
and when i leave the city next month, it will still be cold
it will still be winter, i will still remember
that 7 months prior i embarked on a journey,
it began in Chicago, upon my arrival
and continues, the only difference is-
i won't be here, and certainly i will go
with a bitterer taste, in the frost, of your Chicago,
of a quieter and lonelier bon voyage
than the prior departure from the city of New York
i'd rather believe in the noise and the company to be had
if the streets on the east coast are overcrowded,
then warmth must be something i can expect to find,
if i could actually take comfort in the close proximity forcing me
to share air with the thousands of people walking at once
among strangers to the heat box, i will share in the big apple
the experience of several others, at once
and i will suffer tons as i whisper beneath my breathe
cursing, old women and young men alike had a language
at the very least, in the windy city, we were in it
freezing our asses off and simultaneously swearing
overhearing one another without shame for the commonality
must be with respects to the words that we would use freely
how cold and how warm were we to walk among bare sidewalks
and white asphalt, colder air, briskly walking as several brave
the constant breeze that numbed my cheeks and brought out my tough,
only rough winters would excuse this behavior
and like i said, i like to be here and when i leave
it will still be cold, it will still be winter
when i'm gone
the streets will still freeze
and i will hope only two happenings for me
in the experience of new york city
there is still walking and there is always drinking
if i am cursing at the same time that the old lady
standing beside me on the train platform, in the cold
together waiting, freezing, believing that soon the train will be coming
and, at least i'm not alone,
if i go to the bar and i'm encouraged to guess the card deck number and suit
hopeful that it will be one that was imprinted inside the PBR bottle cap
and grant me such beer on the house, then my bartender will remind me
new york is cold too, like chicago and fun comes like swearing old grandmothers
walking faster than they ever did last summer, and cursing the days that
confine us in the dressings of coats and things and what is only a colder winter.
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